Does it ever gets easier?

I frequently wonder if any of this will ever get any easier... I go through bursts of pain, anger and hope all within 24 hours of one single day. Getting out of the house some days is a task. I couldn't count on my fingers the numerous times I run into public restrooms with my makeup running down my face ruined from all the tears. People notice I am pregnant and comment on it with joy, then they ask me how far along I am and I immediately know what's coming. "I'm 29 weeks (seven and a half months)." The reply is usually the same- "You are so tiny"... Even before I have found out anything was wrong with baby Harlow, I had mentioned to Heath how much these comments always bothered me! When did we became so vain? Pregnancy should never be all about how big or small a mother is... but the fact that a woman's body is such an incredible machine, able to generate life... Today, I really wish I could have a big round tummy, with a perfect baby growing inside of it!! "During pregnancy the amniotic fluid increases in volume as the fetus grows, making a mother's abdomen expand outward. The baby circulates this fluid by swallowing and inhaling it. It is replaced trough exhalation and urination. Because Potter's babies do not have kidneys, they do not urinate. Therefore the womb is nearly void of amniotic fluid, causing moms to not show much outward growth." This lack of amniotic fluid also squeeze's the baby and it makes it even harder for me to carry baby Harlow. Not only makes me sad to think my baby girl is tight inside of me, it is causing deformation in her little body from the lack of space. I pray constantly to God that she is not feeling any pain from this. I am her mother and I love her.. I can't stand the thought of her going through any pain. And that is why I have tried to be so strong. We tend to be selfish and think, "Why us God?"... maybe I will never know in this world why we have to go through this.. maybe we will. It has been a true test and lesson for me, that I can guarantee. It is dealing with love, selfishness, anger, pain... But after all, I think this is really what makes a mother... And then I love my little girl each day a little bit more!